Brain Injuries, The Army, and Yoga

This past Wednesday evening, being early for my 6pm class, I sat in my car listening to NPR, totally engulfed in a story about soldiers with brain injuries being left behind: With Traumatic Brain Injuries, Soldiers Face Battle For Care.

Traumatic brain injury is considered the “signature injury” of soldiers fighting in Iraq and Afghanistan. An NPR and ProPublica investigation has uncovered the military’s failure to diagnose, treat and document brain injuries. Evidence suggests tens of thousands of soldiers are falling through the cracks.

“The system here has no mercy,” said Sgt. Victor Medina, a decorated combat veteran who fought to receive treatment at Fort Bliss after suffering a brain injury during a roadside blast in Iraq last June. Since the explosion, Medina has had trouble reading, comprehending and doing simple tasks. “It’s struggle after struggle.”

Previously, NPR and ProPublica reported that the military has failed to diagnose brain injuries in troops who served in Iraq and Afghanistan. Mild traumatic brain injuries, which doctors also call concussions, do not leave visible scars but can cause lasting mental and physical problems.

At Fort Bliss, we found that even soldiers who are diagnosed with such injuries often do not receive the treatment they need.

As I sat on the side road of 14th NE, outside of the Old Crown Hill Elementary School, drops of tears and mixed emotions came up, faded away, and came up again. I don’t much care for wars, to say the least. My dad was a prisoner of war, spending 4 years in a Communist concentration camp after the Vietnam War. His younger brother, my uncle, was driving home on New Year’s Eve to celebrate Vietnamese New Year with his family when a roadside bomb blew him to pieces. Bertrand Russell said, “War does not determine who is right – only who is left”. The ones who are left are left with a lot of scars.

Looking into it some more, I found that NPR has done a series of investigations, titled, Brain Wars, How The Military is Failing its Wounded. The Military, in response, has started issuing “talking points” in defense. Regardless of who should take the blame, this story has got me wondering, What can we do? What can *I* do?

Naturally, I thought of yoga, but I am well aware that I’m thinking of yoga because it’s my one hammer, and this is looking awfully like a nail. Treating everything as a nail just because you have a hammer is totally inappropriate. But really, who will step up when the soldiers of the largest and most powerful military are suffering with no end in sight? If we really did want to support the troops, how would we do that?

I’m now reminded of the first session in my 500-hour training, when we talked about the five koshas and  Yoga Teacher Gary Kraftsow’s experience with a tumor in his brain.

The cornerstone of Kraftsow’s practice is pancha maya, a model of the human system referenced in ancient Indian texts. According to this model, also known as the kosha model, we are comprised of five dimensions or layers: the physical body (annamaya), the breath or life force (pranamaya), the intellect (manomaya), the personality (vijnanamaya), and the heart, which is the seat of bliss (anandamaya). In the days leading up to surgery, Kraftsow plumbed every dimension of his being.

Using this model, we could look at how a soldier is affected by this whole experience through the five layers:

  • Annamaya kosha (physical body): “But in the weeks and months that followed, his mind began to fail him. He slurred his words, then started stuttering. An avid reader, he struggled to get through a single page. A punctilious soldier, he began showing up late for missions.”
  • Pranamaya kosha (energy body): Displaced energy. “He was fighting to get better, fighting to remain in the Army. He said he felt was being labeled a liar.”
  • Manomaya kosha (psycho-emotional body): “You have all these values that you live for and fight for. And you go to the medical side and you don’t see those values,” Medina said. “I can understand being injured by insurgents. But I can’t understand being injured by my own people.”
  • Vijnanamaya kosha (wisdom body): “When their efforts proved futile, they felt abandoned. Nobody paid attention, they said, to a soldier with an injury that nobody could see.”
  • Anandamaya kosha (spirit body): Separation from a sense of purpose of empowerment: “The way our philosophy is in this hospital … we took away their belief that they truly have something,” said the doctor, who did not want his name used for fear of retaliation from commanders. “I don’t think we gave them the opportunity to heal and that’s what I find really disgusting.”

Can Gary Kraftsow’s experience and teaching work for these forgotten soldiers? I don’t know. I’m not even really sure of where I’m going with this. I admit I don’t even know what to do or what could be done. I just… feel this mixture of empathy, frustration, motivation, burning responsibility to help turn things around, but not sure what, when, and how.

What do you guys think? Do you know of any effort out there? Any study? Anything? I know that the military has forayed into using yoga and qigong as a way to treat PTSD, but to what extent?

I should add that I’m not advocating for the style of yoga often seen in glossy magazine ads, as Gary Krafsow said:

The notion that yoga is an exercise regimen has become so entrenched in the West that nonpractitioners commonly shrug it off with: “I can’t do yoga. I’m not flexible.” Not only has yoga been reduced to asana, but asana has been reduced to stretching and what Kraftsow calls “self-chiropractic,” a fervid pursuit of textbook alignment. What he will tell you—and presently show you—is that yoga isn’t about getting to know the postures. It’s about getting to know yourself.

"War is over. If you want it."

"War is over. If you want it."

Seattle Yoga News: Benefit Class at Santosha Yoga for Girls Rock! Seattle

Meghan Werner, a Seattle yoga teacher, is teaching a benefit yoga class at Santosha Yoga studio this Sunday, June 6 2010 at 2pm for Girls Rock! Seattle. GR!S is a non-profit organization dedicated to building positive self-esteem in girls and encouraging creative expression through music via their Rock ‘n’ Roll summer camps for girls & young women.

I met Meghan recently at the Seattle Street Yoga Teacher Training, and I’m so glad to have done so. Read more about Meghan and I’m sure you’ll see why she’s awesome too.

Santosha is a studio in the Madison neighborhood in Seattle. Here’s the Girls Rock Seattle Roar Yoga flyer.

Address:
2812 East Madison Street
Seattle, WA 98112-4872
(206) 264-5034

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Guns N’ Roses, Fame, Marketing, and Yoga

I had always figured the band name Guns N’ Roses was an arbitrary choice, depicting a certain image of a certain lifestyle and all that. Then, last week, I found out how they really got their name: it was from the names of the band members Axl Rose and Tracii Guns (hey, thanks Cary!). I had heard of Axl Rose, but Tracii Guns? Never until now. You sure learn something new everyday.

“That’s great”, you might be saying, “but what does this have to do with… uh… yoga?”

Among other things: fame. Actually, rock ‘n roll impacts a whole host of other things (like, have you noticed how all companies are hiring “rock stars” now?) For this post, though, I’ll keep it to just yoga.

Yoga and Rock ‘n Roll

Some of us want to be rich, some of us want to be famous, and some of us want to be rich *and* famous. Some of us want to be rich *and* famous via yoga. Nothing inherently weird about that, of course. You gotta have ambition. You gotta be driven by something. You gotta pay the bills.

What’s not cool is when the desire for fame trumps other things, especially when those other things are the very things we preach. Since I got here, I’ve continued to witness and hear stories in the yoga world that completely baffle me. “Welcome to the biz,” my teacher said sympathetically to me when I confided in her about an event that affected me recently.

There was a time when I was more starry eyed about being on the yoga planet, when the thought of being around world famous jet-setting yoga teachers gave me a certain excitement. There was a time when I romanticized what it’d be like to “be a rap superstar / And live large / a big house, 5 cars /you’re in charge.” Thank God that time did not last very long. Thank God that time has passed. Let’s pray to God I won’t have a relapse (hey, it could happen.)

I’m not saying that the world famous yoga and meditation teachers out there are fame whores. Some of them got to be world famous because they are really good at what they do. They actually teach. They’ve got the goods, the important and substantial stuff. People go see them for what they have to say, not just for a photo opp or just so they can list their names on their yoga teacher bios. There are also some equally well qualified teachers who are less well know, who’ve chosen to stay out of the limelight, who have opted out of the yoga conferences and traveling gigs.

Yoga and Marketing

No matter who they are and how big their influence is, my guess is most, if not all, yoga teachers have to do some sort of PR & Marketing.

Some people think marketing is dirty, it’s evil and egotistical (and not, like, you know, “yogic”). Whatever you think it is, one thing I know for sure is that it’s an important and necessary part of running a business. As Paul Arden said in his book, which I like, It’s Not How Good You Are, It’s How Good You Want to Become:

Yes, of course, I am selling. But so are all of you. You are hustling and selling or trying to make people buy something. Your services or your point of view. The way you dress when going for an interview or a party, or merely putting lipstick on. Aren’t you selling yourself? Your priest is selling. He is selling what he believes in. God. The point is we are all selling. It is part of life. – page 119.

I’m saying this because I want to make it clear that I am all for marketing, I’m all for selling. As Rick Ross said, “Every day I’m hustlin’”.

What I am not all for is certain flavors of marketing, and I’m wary of a certain urge in the yoga world to be rock stars, to be associated with rock stars – or the celebriyogis – as they’re called, while undermining other things, and people.

For instance, I know of one yoga teacher who was asked to put more “famous” names in her bio because she only credits a teacher whom she works with locally. Another teacher in the area does not bother to list the name of the teacher she studies with regularly because this teacher is not a “name brand”, and opts for instead other recognizable-and presumably marketable- names.

Personally, I’ve been approached to publish things by people who don’t really seem to have any desire to know who I am and what I’m all about, but because my blog has made it to some list somewhere and is presumably popular. I’ve heard that if you take a training with a certain teacher, you must list this person’s name as the *first* teacher’s name in your bio, before mentioning any other people who influence you.

Yoga and Keepin’ It Real

Okay, yoga community, let me ask you a serious question: what the fuck? (Excuse my French.)

How have we gotten here? Yes, we’re all trying to get more students, grow our business, and making a buck or two. And yes, as long as we are humans, we’re going to make mistakes. We’re going to do things we regret. We’re going to do things we’re not so proud of in hindsight. (Trust me, I know what that’s like, I’m a frequent shopper there.) Still, guys, that’s really no excuse to perpetuate this bullshit. (French is such a beautiful language, n’est-ce pas?)

I probably sound angry in this post. I’m not. I’m catching up on the latest podcast of Wait Wait Don’t Tell Me as I write this. And if you anything about this show, you know that one can’t be angry for too long while listening to it. I do, however, feel the need to call out some of the things I’ve seen and heard.

We are all just hustlin’ and jugglin’ and makin’ a living, and all’s fair in love and war. But this is, you know, Yoga! We are supposed to do things like, find our true selves, and, be authentic and all that. As a start, with all the namasteing we say, wouldn’t it behoove us actually pay respect to someone we study with, even if they’re not the latest headliner for Wanderlust of Bhakti Fest or whatever making waves at the moment? How can we preach the message to “Find your truth” if we can’t even face up to our own?

As at odd as I may be with the current state of the industry, the practice of yoga works for me, and I want to keep at it until it no longer does (it could happen). It’s a privilege to pass on what I’ve learned to those who will benefit from it. So, whatever I learn on the business side becomes a personal lesson, and vice versa. I’ve gone and rambled about “other people” in this post. But really, writing in my blog and moan and whine to whomever will listen is pretty much all I can do.

I’m not going to change anybody much, if at all (tried that with a couple ex-boyfriends, did not work, learned my lesson). What it boils down now is for me to be vigilant in my own business conduct, and having the awareness that the seduction of fame is oh-so-potent, so much so that it’s even got some very learned and long time yoga practitioners sucked in in its engine. I’d write more, but I need to go work on my World Domination plan now. Please contact my agent for comments (er… you know, by clicking on the Comment link below ;) ).

Bonus: Here’s a fantastic crash course in PR using Social Media.

Have you seen my feather boa?

Have you seen my feather boa?

Support Your Local Yoga Teacher

I’ve been giving this post a lot of munching, mulling, and milling. In other words, I’ve been procrastinating. It’s not because I don’t want to write about it, it’s because I keep convincing myself that I don’t have enough: not enough information, not enough well-thought out reasons, not enough cohesive call to action, etc. In fact, it has taken me two hours from the time I clicked “Add New” for a new blog post until the time I actually started writing this.

You know what I mean. You might have been there too.  It’s pretty safe to assume we’ve all been paralyzed by something: attention-deficit, over-analysis, fear, anxiety, uncertainty, anger, addiction, doubt, etc., to name a few things we’ve got to work with. Dr. Robert Svodoba said in a workshop I recently attended: “We are all possessed by something.”

I don’t know if *we* are all possessed. Maybe there’s someone out there who’s seen every Dr. Phil’s episode, read all the Stephen Covey books, attended all the Tony Robbins seminars and listened to all the Wayne Dyer’s CDs, and is now working a 4-hour work-week a la Tim Ferris sipping a tequila somewhere in the French Riviera. Good for them.

As for me, I’m slow and need more help than that. Yoga and meditation may not be appropriate or work for everybody. But it works for me. The yoga practice is ultimately my best hope in this battle at this point. Among other things, my practice is for grounding in stability when I need it, gaining strength and flexibility when those are called for, and feeding my inner demons when they’re hungry.

My guess is, if you’re reading this, yoga means something to you too, and so, hear me out, and help me out with what I’m drumming up for: Support Your Local Yoga Teacher.

They Help Us Grow a Consistent Practice

Yoga is a practice. It’s a day-in, day-out practice. There is nothing instant about it. Supposedly it takes 21 days to train a new habit. Some of us are lucky if we successfully get rid of an unwanted habit in under a month, especially if we have been strengthening that habit for years, or decades. Yoga teachers are there so we can keep coming back and keep at it.

Without yoga, we would fill our book shelves with self-help books and beautiful philosophies and research studies and findings telling us we should do this and that, and we would intellectually know what to do, but without a consistent practice and perseverance, we may not achieve any lasting results. Local yoga teachers also have a chance to get to know us on a regular basis, and are therefore better acquainted with our progress. They’re familiar with our bodies and their tendencies. They are aware of what we’ve done and are capable of. This allows them to help us to our appropriate level.

The skills to stick to something, to keep coming back to it, to surrender, to detach, to learn to fail and be humbled by our falling. Those are very real skills that can be brought into the real world.

They’re Committed to the Learning Process: Theirs and Ours

Dedicated yoga teachers are always learning. They continue to pour time and money into their education. They get second, third, fourth jobs to keep learning and teaching yoga. Local yoga teachers do not have marketing teams behind them. They do not have endorsements and deals. They teach, they do their own marketing, advertising, bookkeeping, making ends meet, the whole enchilada.

Authentic teachers are not preaching. They know that they, too, are in this human form, with all the maladies and fallacies of the human mind. They are doing the practice, too.

Seeing someone else working on the very same thing we are and getting support from them is the basis of a community. We need local yoga teachers to cultivate this community.

They Bring the Teachings to Life

The teachings of the Yoga texts are great, but face it, they can be esoteric and downright bizarre. It is one thing to just pick up a copy of Patanjali’s Yoga Sutra or any copy of the Upanishads and toil away at trying to understand their meaning. It is another to have a teacher to explain these things to you and provide an environment where you can discuss them.

As awesome as the great teachers out there are, and as much as they have done to disseminate information, with them, we often learn in non-interactive, one-way street manner: reading something, watching something, listening to something. It is the local yoga teachers that break it down for us, put it together for us,and make the whole wide world of yoga less enigmatic to us.

Imagine if tomorrow, all the yoga classes in the neighborhood disappeared. Now, I know some of you would rejoice, thinking: yes! *some* of them *should* disappear. No no, I’m not talking about Cult Yoga, or Playboy Yoga, or… well, Whatever-Irks-You-Yoga. I’m talking about yoga beyond aerobics here. I’m talking about the local yoga class where people go to practice their Yama, NiyamaAsanaPranayama, their Pratyahara, their meditation: DharanaDhyanaSamadhi. (And yes, we need to start putting the foot down and not be ashamed of saying, “Why yes, I’m working on my Samadhi”, but that’s a different post.)

Imagine if tomorrow, no one’s left in town to tell us about Ayurveda, about Sanskrit, mantra, mudras, the cakras, our constitution; about Jyotish, the bandhas and the nadis, about samsara and kleshas, the seer and the vrtti and the gunas. Imagine if tomorrow, there’s no one to help us work with our breath, our prana, no one left to teach pre-natal and senior yoga, no one to explain why we just threw out our back trying to do Upward Dog, no one to explain esoteric concepts, no one to show us how to work on Warrior I.

I will also say this at the expense of ruffling some feathers: if yoga teachers disappeared tomorrow, the people who are only in it for the workout will have other options. They’ll move on to Crossfit or Bootcamp or whatever the new hot fitness thing is. But, for people who are it for more than sweatin’ and burnin’ calories, we’d be losing out on access to something that can help us become fully functional humans and members of society.

We get to know ourselves and the inner workings of our minds through many ways, one of which is from the yoga philosophy. I’m not saying it’s the *only* way. Far, far from it. I’m saying the teaching, the models, the concepts are useful starting points for self-introspection and self-awareness.

In Practical Terms

What does this all mean? I have a few ideas, but I’m inviting you to help me think of more.

I’m committed to:

  • Never stop learning.
  • Only teach what I know, and teach from my experience.
  • Exchange ideas and get feedback from fellow teachers.
  • Keep raising the bar on the quality of my teaching.
  • Help promote other teachers whose work I’m familiar with to people who will benefit from it.
  • Continue to work with my teachers locally, especially now that my 500-hour training is over, I’ve got to be even more proactive about keeping up with a consistent study program.

What other ways can we support local yoga teachers? I’d love to hear from you.

Falling is learning, kitteh!

Falling is learning, kitteh!

Support Your Local Yoga Teacher – An Interview with Laura DeFreitas

I first got to know Laura DeFreitas about a year and a half ago when she became an independent yoga teacher and started teaching at Taj Yoga, where I teach now, and where I was doing my yoga teacher training with Pacific Yoga at the time. Wanting to support her new business, and as a teacher trainee, I got a super good discount with Laura (that really sealed the deal) I signed up for a one-year membership with her.

So, I got to practice with Laura for a year. She primarily teaches Vinyasa Flow and Yoga Nidra, which, if you have not tried one of her classes, you really ought to.

I met up with Laura in Ballard at a Thai restaurant, and we talked about the practice and business of yoga over delicious Pad See Ewe (no tofu, extra eggs :) ). Laura finished her training in 2002 after college and has been teaching since 2003. Her influences are: Ashtanga, Yoga Nidra, Universal, and Iyengar in her 200-hr teacher training at Pacific Yoga.

What made you want to be a yoga teacher?
I was a gymnast for 15 years, took a break when I entered college and felt like something was missing, not only physically but something else. I feel like I’ve always been a seeker. I discovered yoga through a girlfriend of a coworker, took an intro series, and from the first class just knew this was something I wanted to learn more about. I did it as much yoga as I could. Then I discovered the Pacific Yoga Teacher training. It felt like coming home. Yoga speaks to me on that level of spirit I felt I’d been missing in my upbringing.

How did it become your profession?
I just hoped that I would be good at doing it [yoga]. The students were the ones that told me that I should continue and teach. I started teaching more and working less. It took me a couple years to make me realize that this is something I could do professionally.

How did you get your initial jitters out of the way?
I rented a small space and charged 5 bucks and taught my coworkers, whom I already knew, and that helped a lot.

What has changed the most since you started teaching?
I’ve changed from “spa yoga”, to a “no apology” yoga. This started as an internal shift. I’d catch myself getting nervous about teaching difficult poses and then noticed that I would back down in order to ‘protect’ the student thinking, “This is too hard, they’re not gonna want to do it.” I realize now that this is the place to work and there is a lot to be learned right on the edge of physical, mental and emotional intensity. My classes still leave you feeling great and I offer a Yin Yoga class to balance the vigorousness of my general classes.

How would you describe your classes?
I like think my classes move you into stillness. Yoga Nidra is infused into the movement. My primary influences are Astanga and Universal Yoga. Lately I’ve been drawing a lot of inspiration from Seattle Ashtanga Yoga teacher, Troy Lucero. Classes are modified to suit the level of the student base.

How did you discover Yoga Nidra?
I was at the 8 Limbs advanced training, and Anne Phyfe taught Yoga Nidra. It was one of those moments where you’re like, wow, I need to know more about this.

What’s the hardest thing about being a yoga teacher?
I think yoga is undervalued, it’s more than exercise. Getting that across to people in subtle ways is one of my intentions as a teacher.

Seattle Yoga Teachers Laura DeFreitas and Lux Sternstein at Laura's 1-year anniversary party at Taj Yoga

Seattle Yoga Teachers Laura DeFreitas and Lux Sternstein at Laura's 1-year anniversary party at Taj Yoga

Laura teaches primarily at Taj Yoga in the Crown Hill neighborhood of Seattle. You can find more about Laura at Laura Nidra Yoga.

Here’s Laura on the value of yoga beyond the physical:

Support Your Local Yoga Teacher – An Interview with Greg Owen

I first met Greg Owen at a Tias Little workshop in Seattle. I had been taking notes all day on my iPhone, making Greg curious enough to ask if I was really taking notes or just texting the whole time. After showing him how I took notes, my super duper tapping skillz impressed Greg so much that he let me take a yoga class of his for gratis.

Fast forward a couple years later, after becoming a yoga teacher in my own rights, I still remember Greg for his support of me as a young and uninitiated yoga teacher trainee wobbling into the world of teaching yoga. I met up with Greg one fine Seattle day to interview him.

What made you want to be a yoga teacher?
I grew up in Seattle and my mom did it when I was a kid, I’ve always been interested in philosophy. I studied Philosophy at New York University and Ponoma College and moved back to Oakland and got a degree in Glassblowing and did yoga as physical therapy for my glassblowing. I went to the Pilchuck glass school in Stanwood, which is an international school that Dale Chihuly started.

There were free yoga classes in the morning. A teacher came from 8 Limbs Yoga and taught and I was blown away by her demeanors and knew that I needed some of that in my life, since I’m a two left foot kinda guy. It was so helpful to me that I wanted to share it with people.

For my 36th bday I went to India and stayed at the Sivananda Ashram in Kerala. I figured that’s half my life so I would start over. When I came back Anne Phyfe Palmer suggested I take the teacher training. I started teaching 2 months into my training, afterwards I started teaching at 8 Limbs and have been teaching there since.

How have you gotten to be here in terms of style?
As the philosophy starts to steep in it becomes more than just the physical, the Yoga sutras and Buddhist text are all coming together. In my teaching the philosophy plays a central part. I describe it as using the body to discover the nature of the mind.

What has changed the most in your teaching?
Ideally my classes work the best when I’m not there, meaning I try not to let my personality get in the way of the teaching. I want to become transparent for the teaching to be seen.

How do you mean? What’s a class with you like?
I teach awareness, which means awareness of the breath and the body, and where the mind is, lik, “What are you thinking about, and what is the nature or quality of your thought?” I try not to suggest how people should feel or what they should think but I always ask them to ask themselves how they should think or how they’re feeling.

Do you teach with music?
No

And why not?
I’m a musician, a musicaholic, and a collector. It’s a pleasure and a distraction, it’s a big part of my life. I try to give yoga some space so I’d rather listen to my music at home. Also, people focus on it too much.

How do you introduce chanting?
Sanskrit is the language of yoga, I teach in it as much as I can, the chanting is a way to tap in the bhakti or the bhahavana. It’s an easy way to get people out of their head, it can bring up a lot of fear. It’s not a test.

What would you tell someone who wants to be a yoga teacher now?
I would ask what they want to do, and if they want to make a living, I’d tell them to become a barista instead. I think everybody can benefit from a teacher training, whether they teach or not. It’s like a calling and less a career choice. It’s not like being a massage therapist or a acupuncturist. Everybody can benefit for sure. It’s a human practice, so a practice from book or DVD is limited.

What’s the most challenging thing about teaching yoga?
All that human interaction can be very challenging. I’m a private person, so all that psychic energy in the room can be overwhelming, more so than a hard day of snowboarding. One thing I’m dealing with right now is figuring out if I should or should not tell the students that I’m having a hard time. I’m just trying to figure out what’s right for me.

What else gets you fired up?
I love music. I love being outside, hiking, swimming, snowboarding.

Where can we see your artwork?
At gregowen.com, at the William Traver Gallery on 1st and Union above the Vetri Glass International.

Seattle Yoga Teacher Greg Owen

Seattle Yoga Teacher Greg Owen

You can also find out more about Greg at Studio G. He teaches at 8 Limbs Yoga and Westside Yoga in West Seattle, and Be Luminous Yoga in downtown Seattle. Here’s Greg on his teaching style and “Everything Yoga”:

Support Your Local Yoga Teacher – An Interview with Diana Bonyhadi

I met up with Diana Bonyhadi, a fellow graduate of Pacific Yoga Teacher Training, at Grimaldi’s, a great local coffee shop in Issaquah, Washington. Her husband showed up for a short minute to give her a kiss and shared a cookie with us, and was off to work, leave me to chat with her.

What made you want to be a yoga teacher?
I’ve been practicing for 15 years. I grew up in Berkeley in the 60s, yoga was part of my life, but I didn’t actively practice until 1990. I had a lot of people asking me to be a yoga teacher, and I couldn’t ignore it.

What’s the hardest thing about being a yoga teacher?
When I have a student that comes to class regularly and the correction is always the same, and it makes me wonder if maybe this isn’t the class for them? Should I have to ask them to leave? You have to let people walk their own walk and ask, “What is it that has to happen when they refuse to take the adjustment?” Also, helping students to do that om.

What comes naturally for you in your teaching?
Sequencing really comes naturally. When I talk to the students and see what they need, it becomes so clear what the sequencing should be.

What has changed the most in your teaching?
The reliance on notes. I would write up the whole class and study them beforehand. Not to say that I don’t have a teaching plan, but now it comes more naturally and intuitively.

How would you describe your signature teaching style
It’s a Vinyasa style class with therapeutics element and alignment-based. I would start with a seated meditation, then opening up the arms and working through the shoulders, the rib cage and the hips, all are sequenced with breath. You will always get pranayama in my class. There’s always good music.

How do you tend to your own practice?
I do it every day, and it always has a meditation component.

What have you learned about teaching?
You can’t model the full pose, when you look up you’re out of alignment. Also, different people come with different energy and different bodies and i really enjoy that. No matter where you are, you don’t need a yoga room. You can gain deep wisdom from your students no matter where you teach.

What would you tell an aspiring a yoga teacher?
Go study, go get your certification. Learn alignment.

Diana teaches at Samena Club in Bellevue and Urban Oasis in Issaquah. You can learn more about Diana at Kharma Bella Yoga and follow her blog Living Yoga Beyond the Mat.

Issaquah yoga teacher Diana Bonyhadi

Issaquah yoga teacher Diana Bonyhadi

Here’s a tip from Diana on getting started on chanting Om.

Let the Music Play

Sophomore year. 19 years old. I was studying in France. Traveling alone half the time. I had taken a night train to Milan to meet a boy (don’t ask). We were going to spend two weeks in Rome together. After breakfast, he put on some music and laid there on the couch. “What are you doing?” I asked, puzzled. “Listening to music,” said he, equally puzzled that I had to ask about something so obvious.

“You, you… you would just lay there listening to music?” I really did not understand this phenomenon. “Don’t you?” He asked, like I had been missing out something great.

And I had.

I had never, never ever, just listen to a song while doing nothing. The whole entire song. To me, what this means is I’m unable to focus on just one thing, not even for less than five minutes. This is a serious bug. In the software world it’d be something classified at, like, Sev. 1 Pri. 1 (Severity 1, Priority 1).

I don’t know how I got to be this way. I don’t know what this is a product of. I’ve got no one to blame. Oh, sure, I have a few suspects. I might bash the easy scapegoats. But in the end, I’m responsible. It’s my own fight, my own battle. It’s starting to look oh-so-Bhagavad-Gita-ish, isn’t it? “Oh Arjuna, resolve to fight!”

As you can see, like a lot of things, it goes back to yoga.

A Walk To Remember

This afternoon, I took a walk along the shores of Richmond Beach with my mom, a beach not too far from my house north of Seattle. I had introduced her to Iyengar yoga a year and a half earlier, and she has gone twice a week religiously since then. During our walk, she said to me, “My body is finally starting to do what my mind asks it to do.” She was so excited! We stopped on the beach and she showed me how she now knows what to do when the instructor asks her to bend at the hips. “Normally I’d bend here,” she said showing me her spine. Then she said something fantastic, “I’m starting to see my mind and body uniting.”

Hallelujah!!!!!

Let me tell you a little about my mom. She’s an Expert Worrier. My mom worries. She worries a lot. If you’re not worried about anything, that’s because my mom is worrying about it for you. She has the greatest imagination in the world, and it’s often used to worry about things with the most remote possibility of happening.

This is a woman who knows nothing about the latest yoga trends. I doubt my mom even remembers that yoga means union. She doesn’t study the Sutras, the Gita, or Tantra. She’s not out there rocking to yoga music for ecstatic bliss. She just dedicates herself twice a week to going to class. At night, if I am home, she often lets me put her in a Restorative pose. That’s all.

To hear her say that was so awesome that I screeched and jumped up and hugged her, startling other peaceful beach walkers, but if they had know what was happening, they’d be ecstatic too.

You’ve Got The Music In You

In one session during my 500-hr teacher training, we discussed the appropriate use of music for each type of asana (standing, twists, backbends, etc.). I brought in La Soledad by Pink Martini as music for the standing poses. “I don’t know if I can practice to this, I’d have to lay down and just relax because it’s so beautiful,” my teacher said. “I know,” said I, “my pace is really slow.”

This slow pace hasn’t always been my favorite or forte. But, it’s my Chinese bitter medicine. Breathing slowly, practicing Asana slowly, walking slowly, it is the hardest thing in the world for me. Just as my mom’s practice is showing her she can gain mastery over her body, starting with intellectual knowledge, my practice is starting to let me gain mastery over my mind with the physical work of not rushing from pose to pose. I’m learning how to Keep Quiet and let the music play.

This is a favorite poem I read daily lately.

Keeping Quiet – Pablo Neruda

Now we will count to twelve
and we will all keep still.

This one time upon the earth,
let’s not speak any language,
let’s stop for one second,
and not move our arms so much.

It would be a delicious moment,
without hurry, without locomotives,
all of us would be together
in a sudden uneasiness.

The fishermen in the cold sea
would do no harm to the whales
and the peasant gathering salt
would look at his torn hands.

Those who prepare green wars,
wars of gas, wars of fire,
victories without survivors,
would put on clean clothing
and would walk alongside their brothers
in the shade, without doing a thing.

What I want shouldn’t be confused
with final inactivity:
life alone is what matters,
I want nothing to do with death.

If we weren’t unanimous
about keeping our lives so much in motion,

if we could do nothing for once,
perhaps a great silence would
interrupt this sadness,
this never understanding ourselves
and threatening ourselves with death,
perhaps the earth is teaching us
when everything seems to be dead
and then everything is alive.

Now I will count to twelve
and you keep quiet and I’ll go.

-from Full Woman, Fleshly Apple, Hot Moon
Translated by Stephen Mitchell

On the beach with my mom for Mother's Day 2010.

On the beach with my mom for Mother's Day 2010.

Seattle Yoga News: Improv and Yoga Stories with Threshold Ensemble at Samadhi Yoga

A year ago, I took an Improv class taught by my friend Jed Rose, who’s on the ensemble with a group called Quiet Monkey Fight. After the series, we put on a show for our friends and family, and other willing and unwilling victims, at a theater in the Capitol Hill neighborhood of Seattle called Odd Duck Studio. There were moments of being a duck, moments of being a monkey, and many moments of being odd. One thing’s for sure, it was great fun.

Where am I going with this? What does this have to do with yoga?

Improv has a lot more to do with yoga than you might think. Specifically, it’s a lot about your ability to stay in the present moment. You’re not supposed to run off with a script in your own mind, but instead build on what your partners say. To do that, you need to keep up with their stories and connect with them.

So, if that all sounds good to you, and you have a story to tell, check out this upcoming event hosted by Soleil Hepner of YogaBlaze and Samadhi Yoga in Seattle: HEARTFIRE @ Samadhi – Yoga Stories with the Threshold Ensemble, a Playback Theater Group.

The theme of the event is: How has Yoga inspired, challenged, & changed you?

From the event description:

Unfold the heart of your personal (yoga) story through PLAYBACK THEATER – spontaneous re-enactments with music, movement and improv. Let’s celebrate our yoga community together – through story and play.

When: May 8, 2010 from 7:30pm to 9pm
Where: Samadhi Yoga – Capitol Hill, 1205 E Pike St.
Contact: SAMADHI YOGA – 206-329-4070
Event link: YogaBlaze Events

Bonus: There’s a suggested donation of $15. I will be out of town and won’t be able to make it. So, if you would like to go, please let me know and I’ll put your name on the list (yup, just like “goin’ to da club!”). Okay, I actually just have one ticket, so first come first serve!

So then I decided to take up yoga...

So then I decided to take up yoga...

Study Sanskrit in Seattle with Kathryn Payne

Two years ago, when I decided that I would enroll in a yoga teacher training, I had no idea that I would be learning Sanskrit. Quite frankly, I didn’t even know such a thing existed, that’s how “not with it” I was. And now, I cannot be more glad to have been exposed to this ancient language, and that I have access to continue my studies with American Sanskrit Institute teacher Kathryn Payne.

This coming May, 2010, you too, can read Sanskrit. No, really, that’s not an exaggeration or me just being facetious. It’s a promise. Kathryn will be conducting two workshops, Part 1 taking place May 22-23, and Part 2 on May 29, and I whole-heartedly recommend them.

From the flyer:

The first step in learning Sanskrit is to develop an intimacy with its sounds; become familiar with their exact location, feeling their force and power, and the unique way they vibrate the palate and engage the breath. Above all, enjoying sound is at the heart of our program.

The 14 hour Sanskrit Training is an educational adventure that will give you a permanent connection to the beauty and energy of Sanskrit as well as a dynamic model of yoga in the classroom that supports a natural and effortless focus.

Knowledge of Sanskrit makes it possible to grasp the subtleties of yoga, whose body of teachings are written in Sanskrit. Since ancient times the practice of yoga has included the study of Sanskrit and the chanting of Sanskrit mantras to induce calm and clarity in meditation.

Sanskrit is integral to yoga – its pure and sacred sounds essential for harmonizing and balancing the mind. This Sanskrit training will teach you how to approach the language of yoga – as a yoga – that is both enjoyable and inspiring.

By the end of a weekend you’ll be reading this sutra, savoring the precise pronunciation and pure energy of Sanskrit, and gaining direct access to the ancient wisdom of yoga encoded in this sacred language.

Where:
Sound Yoga in West Seattle
5639 California Ave Southwest, Seattle WA

When:
Part 1 – May 22 and 23, 2010
Saturday and Sunday, 11:00 a.m. – 6:00 p.m.
Part 2 – May 29, 11 a.m. – 5:00 p.m.

Tuition:
Part 1 – $225
Part 2 – $95
Refundable less $25 by May 14, 2010.

Contact:
Kathryn Payne
kp@islandyogacenter.com
206.778.5805

Get the printable flyer: Kathryn Payne’s Sanskrit Workshop May 2010

You'll read this by the end of the weekend with Kathryn

You'll read this by the end of the weekend with Kathryn